Wednesday, July 19, 2017

More Than I Have to Give

 i am
 a glint of light
 already gone
when looked for

i don't know what
life wants of me
but it is

than i have
 to give

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Don't Talk to Them About Me


Monday, July 17, 2017

Seeking Why....Still

image by richard burbridge
"we hold on to our shit and the accumulative garbage
of our own consciousness and experiences rather
than just letting it go and have it stop interfering
with our lives."
~kiki smith 

salt in

seeking why i can't
let go

Sunday, July 16, 2017

The Sisters

i call these four oaks
the sisters
this is where i go to 
meditate..or just
in these times of so much
time sickness
the hurrying about busyness
everyone should have a 
sacred place
there is an old well
covered over
under these trees
trees breath
so much life force
i trimmed a dead limb from
the one in the foreground yesterday
thanked her for the gift
promised to honor her with a

i will make myself a walking stick with her
i also prepped a piece of cedar root that was
to me
i envision the face of 
ancient grandmother
we'll see

Friday, July 14, 2017

The Reward of Patience is Patience

one revolution around the sun
with the Insight Timer Meditation app


today's rune:
This is the Rune of the Spiritual Warrior. Always the battle of the Spiritual Warrior is with the self. Funding a will through action, yet unattached to outcomes, remaining mindful that all you can really do is stay out of your own way and let the Will of Heaven flow through you -- these are the hallmarks of the Spiritual Warrior.
Embodied in this Rune is the energy of discrimination, the swordlike quality that enables you to cut away the old, the dead, the extraneous. And yet with the Warrior Rune comes certain knowledge that the universe always has the first move.  Patience is the virtue of this Rune, and it recalls the words of St. Augustine that the reward of patience is patience.

Here, you are asked to look within, to delve down to the foundations of life itself. Only in so doing can you hope to meet the deepest needs of your nature and tap into your most profound resources. The molding of character is at issue when you draw Teiwaz.

Associated with this Rune are the sun, masculine energy, the active principle. The urge for conquest is powerful here, especially self-conquest, which is a lifelong pursuit and calls for awareness, single-mindedness and the willingness to undergo your passage with compassion and in total trust.

A Rune of courage and dedication, in ancient times Teiwaz was the glyph that warriors painted on their shields before battle. Now, the same symbol strengthens our resolve to align the self with the self.

i watch from the still point of my
spiritual warrior

Sunday, July 9, 2017


image by unworn

 give up all the other worlds
except the one to which
sometimes it takes
and the sweet confinement of your

Friday, July 7, 2017

Who Fixes the Fixer

i am a fixer
from as far back as i can remember
i am the one people come to with their problems
their pain
i am the strong one
the one who gets things done
i am the fixer
i’ve taken care of my parents
my siblings 
my children
and with my job
victims of all race…creed….and situation
who fixes the fixer
 people assume that my strong exterior goes 
all the way to the core of my being
wish they could be like me
they see only the face i offer up to the world
when in reality
it’s a daily battle to keep the fragile pieces
 that make up who i am from imploding 
with the sound of a thousand fine crystal glasses
 into a pile
on the floor
leaving only an image
like that burned into the memory of your eye from a searing light
i’ve become a master at hiding the real me
a most noble actor on this stage called life
covering up the sound of the chains i carry
and the quiet click of the door closing in my heart
who fixes the fixer
i can soothe her each night with wine
and music
i can make her rise each morning
  force her to put on her mask and cape
 send her out into the world 
to fight the evils of another day
but i can’t fix her
i can’t fix her
who fixes the fixer

Thursday, July 6, 2017

None But Ourselves

take a long hard look at


Wednesday, July 5, 2017

Too Great to Bridge

image by nancy holly
"what need we humans have
a species
lacking in
its no wonder we turn to
for love
the distance between one
and another is often too
great to bridge"

Tuesday, July 4, 2017


i finished this piece today
instead of burning and sanding
i used my razortip wood burner
to add shadows

i've got a new project in mind
but won't be able to get started 
for another week
i'm looking forward to
experimenting with some
coloring and surface design
on wood

Monday, July 3, 2017

Protector of Lost Souls

image and words by paula jones

"there are angels that are given particularly 
interesting "jobs"
the ones whose task is to guard those who
are lost
that don't know who they are
why they are here
they feel worthless
like they are just existing
these angels
these protectors
are here to help the lost find their way
by putting others in their paths
to question
just to guard them
until one day
something happens
and they find their own light

are you one of those angels
or one of the lost"

i bow my head
 in gratitude
for their

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Kill Hole


 roughed out
with a chainsaw

finished with a rotary tool

the small hole on the bottom
a "kill hole"
used by the ancient Mimbres
to release the spirit

placed in my works
(my signature)

so their spirits aren't trapped
 in this time between times

Saturday, July 1, 2017

This Piece of God

i have always wanted 
beyond what i've wanted
there is no language to speak words
deep enough... strong enough to
articulate what i truly 
it isn't the secrets of the
or water
maybe it's just to know
who i am
this piece of
who is

Friday, June 30, 2017

The Stars Howl My Name


my company
 a pull in my bones
my muscles

for the one who sees my
i am in need of healing
between myself and my
the stars looking down on me
howl my name
as i wail a song of
as ancient as time
in a language not 
of this world

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Inside My Head

i sit
in the watery


of dawn





inside my

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Do Your Worst

there comes a time when you 
to just sit with your 
wrap your arms around
and invite loss to do it's
if you
then you can deal
with what is
of yourself....

Friday, June 23, 2017

The Archeology of Trues


you just need to


about something
not to get


or help
but just to kill its


 by allowing the


 of things to hit the air

this is my place for cluttering up the silence
with my


when the ground beneath my
feet is


Thursday, June 22, 2017

If You Love Me

Tuesday, June 20, 2017


dust too
is drawn on wings
to light


image by tamra davisson

  hold your head and


kind of day

damn this
damn this
damn this 

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Spirit in the Wood

my first attempt at carving a wood spirit
with my new foredom rotary carver.
not 100% happy with it....pretty flat and

i've been wanting to try out my new toy
but when i go several days without sleep
i stay away from power tools.

only managed to nick my thumb and leg
all in all i think that's a good beginning.

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Written Across the Sky

if only

i could be other than 
what i am

i can't

 one loss
too far

i'm now something
i can't name...or


there is a certain 
poetry to that

written across the sky

tucked in among the


Friday, June 16, 2017

Not Yet

image by unworn
the past


i sit


breath held
the voice i know
never heard
calling me


not yet



Thursday, June 15, 2017

A Music Against The Hard Edges

in all the woods that day i was
the only living thing
fretful...exhausted...or unsure.
giant fir and spruce and cedar trees
that had stood their ground
three hundred years
stretched in sunlight calmly
unimpressed by whatever
it was that held me
hunched and tense above the stream
biting my nails...calculating all
my impossibilities.
nor did the water pause
to reflect or enter into
my considerations.
it found its way
over and around a crowd
of rocks in easy flourishes...
in laughing evasions and
shifts in direction.
nothing could slow it down for long.
it even made a little song
out of all the things
that got in its way...
a music against the hard edges
of whatever might interrupt its going.
~john brehm, passage

i need to learn this 

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Happy Camper

happy camper!
happy camper!
happy camper!

hoping now i can kick my carving up
a notch...

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Truth #7


Monday, June 12, 2017

Searching For Home

i work with energy
this is a photo someone took of my hand while
i was working
i also have
the sight
it has passed through
the female members of my family
my grandmother
my mother
i was "told" before the birth of
my fourth granddaughter that she
would follow my path
(something i wouldn't wish
on anyone)

she is five and talks about her
"other mother...other brother...other sister"
not the ones she lives with now
i've read that these memories fade as
children age
my mother never mentioned me recalling
the past but told many stories of how at
the age of four i ran away from home daily
and was always being watched for and 
brought home by neighbors
makes me wonder if i was trying
to "get home"
 my whole life....even now
i've felt the pull of
somewhere else
not here
searching for

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Heavily Meditated

you do not have to die to become a ghost
i suppose there is death on some level
i am there
i know not this entity i have become
 always been a stranger to this world

this is new
like all sound has been stolen 
leaving only
inviolable silence 
like walking a half step
behind myself
i will gather up what my life has become

Monday, May 22, 2017

Dare Spiritum Meum

consummatum est
et inclinato capite tradidit spiritum


Sunday, May 21, 2017

A Different Quiet

"i have learned that if you must leave
a place that you have lived in and loved
and where all your yesterdays are buried
deep...leave it any way except a slow way
leave it the fastest way you can. never turn
back and never believe that an hour you
remember is a better hour because it is dead.
passed years seem safe ones
while the future lives in a cloud
formidable from a distance
the cloud clears as you enter it"

this house tonight
a different quiet
this night
i sit
 in vacant contemplation
of nothing...

Saturday, May 20, 2017

In the Eye of God

"i want... first of be at peace with myself.
i want a singleness of eye...a purity of intention...
a central core to my life that will enable me to 
carry out these obligations and activities as well
as i can. i borrow from the
language of the live "in grace" as much
of the time as possible. by grace i mean an inner
harmony...essentially spiritual...which can be
translated into outward harmony. i would like to
achieve a state of inner spiritual grace from
which i could function and give as i was meant
to in the eye of God."